Today is my birthday

I am going to see my friends and colleagues and have dinner with them at Russian restaurant: Tatiana. Last year we were at Mari Ivanna, also a Russian place ( but it is in the city). I have not been in Brighton Beach for a long time!
So… I’m supposed to feel happy am I? All I want is to hide right now.. Under the blanket, holding a pillow but something tells me that I should do better today.
So happy birthday to me and I hope you who reads this will smile for me once, so I can smile to you back:)